April 15, 2018

Fellow anxiety-attack-prone friends, a word of warning: avoid the grocery store today.

For me, any day at the grocery store is my anxiety disorder's mecca, so the warning kind of goes without saying.  So many people, so many cars, so many options, so many EVERYTHING.  On a day when a rare, early-spring ice storm warning is in effect, and the WORLD seems to be at the grocery store, it becomes the mot...

March 21, 2018

[Originally written 5/20/09]

Reliving what seems like the same broken patterns is futile, right?  When all other avenues have been explored, and all other possible excuses have been exhausted, the only explanation remaining - though not entirely plausible - appears to be past life repetition (I said it wasn't entirely plausible). It's as though somewhere in distant history, a great injustice was com...

October 12, 2017

[Originally written 6/4/2007]

I can remember being about sixteen years old, sitting on the living room couch (the one no one ever sat in because it was in the "living room", rather than the "family room") and crying rivers over some boy who had broken my heart. Although science says one cannot physically recall pain, making it impossible for child-bearing mothers to recant the actual pain of childbi...

October 12, 2017

[Originally written 9/9/2006]

I am so mildly inspired to write about the obscenely strange combination of surroundings around me right now, that I simply must try, if only todistract myself from the misery that has permeated my brain for the past 17 hours.

Here I am, 5:02pm on a Saturday evening, sitting in a coffee house in Albany with a giant - I mean GIANT - cup of chai latte to my right, my ipo...

October 9, 2017

[Originally written May 26, 2006]

I was on my daily run yesterday, enjoying the early-summer evening’s mild breeze, the late sun beating down on my sweat-soaked neck, and as usual, taking in all the sights, sounds, and smells around me. They’ve kind of become story-generating adventures for me, these runs.  Maybe its something about the clarity that comes to you when you’re starting your second mile...

October 9, 2017

[Originally written May 25, 2006]

He saw her hand reaching out of the water, just as her head was about to go under.
He pointed and stared, mesmerized by the horrible beauty.
He laughed when she said she liked the feeling of the caterpillar’s soft coat.
Told her she was a child, though not with words.
He had no regard her desire for life, her willingness to survive.
Discarded like yesterday’s trash,...

October 9, 2017

[Originally written May 19, 2006]

Yesterday’s reference, “Instinct attracts us, but intellect bonds us”, sat on my mind like a fat Buddha for most of the day. There are many interpretations available for this one, and my brain ingested, digested, and engaged in mental reverse peristalsis several times before I put it to rest…quite happily, I might add. Another Sagittarian quest to seek truth, analyz...

October 9, 2017

[Originally written May 17, 2006]

"A preponderance of quixotic quincunxes today suggests an inability to relax as we miscalculate the amount of work needed to complete our tasks."

This was the first line of a horoscope I read today. 

Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not a subscriber to the Dionne Warwick School of Astrology, I don't base my daily activities around what Sally Brompton says in The Post,...

October 9, 2017

[Originally written May 15, 2006]

Eddie Vedder was close enough for me to touch as he belted out the faster, more intense version of Even Flow on Friday night. From the seventh row, floor: pure, unadulterated, gleaming ROCK was what was happening up there...energy, vitality, regard, disregard...it was all there. I was too, until...wait...what the fuck is going on here?

I have no way to confirm or d...

October 9, 2017

[Originally written May 12, 2006]

So as it turns out, the reason behind my last post maybe isn't as spiritual as I thought it was going to be...but nonetheless, it tickled me.

The whole "Uncle Bob's" thing was brought to my mind (after not thinking about it for probably a decade) because of something that happened to me yesterday. I was on my daily run (yeah, I'm runnin' Forest-Gump-style lately......

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